My heart is fractured by beating fists.
Voices reach the inner workings of my body
And push me to hide–
But darkness looks a lot like fear.
I’m blindly moving through lost caverns
Fighting for an answer–
But it isn’t here.
My heart is fractured by beating fists.
Voices reach the inner workings of my body
And push me to hide–
But darkness looks a lot like fear.
I’m blindly moving through lost caverns
Fighting for an answer–
But it isn’t here.
I’m in love with a stranger.
He is a painter.
He paints in articulate words and vivid colors,
And I find comfort in his unfamiliarity–
It captures my image of what bold should be–
Like the edges of his skin when I touch him–
But he stands behind a door without a number,
And it rests at the end of my sight,
So I continue to move towards something that is, and isn’t, there.
I am in love with a stranger,
And he is a painter.
He converses with me in his converse sneakers
And pulls me in with a silence that holds me up in his arms.
The sharp edges of his body match his intensity
And beat into me to bring my heart back to life again
From its long sleep.
Words are lost in translation and
my mind is a blur of yes and no and run,
but I wait for someone to step out of this blur
and say something that sounds like a warm greeting–
a hello from quiet mornings and coffee–
but my thoughts are too light for the harsh reality that claims my fate,
and I can’t run away
from a present perfect destruction that waits in the corners of every room–
every hidden space that makes a piece of the puzzle that was never meant to be there.
It was never meant to fit where
I wanted to place it.
I wasn’t meant for building concrete things.
I was meant for discreet passage ways
In tunnels that have no space for answers.
My eyes hold the dark
Like an open tomb
My mouth cries out
For someone to look at me—
I hear the boards creak.
I feel the walls crack
As dust fills my nose
And the floors shake
Like an earthquake.
Light crawls through the spaces
And my body relaxes.
I am not alone in this darkness.
I see you standing beside the rubble
Looking at me,
Waiting with an open hand,
And I begin again.
I push my body through the pieces of concrete,
And reach.
Your eyes found me.
Your hands took mine,
And we left this place.
This place of dry bones and fallen things.